My bags are packed...

I'm ready to go. Wednesday is here, and Its time for me to leave once again. This time for real. I only have 4 full days in Ottawa, as of right now I don't know if I can get home on the Monday...hehe. Well I am pretty excited. Hopefully all goes well.

birthday gone bad...

again. So I was suppose to leave for Ottawa yesturday with my sister, but Dan's Grandma ended up passing away. So my sister called me yesturday and said she would be here around 2 today, well she called me around 2 and told me they were staying until wednesday. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR I am so mad! I don't even know what I am going to do for 2 days now. I don't even have any money to spend here, cause if I do, then I don't have any money for Ottawa. I don't even have much food here, fresh foods.

camping trip...

was a great time. I had our camp cheer in my head still. My group was great. We didnt win, I never win. I was really sad about it. I almost cried. I ended up jumping into the grossest green pond I have ever seen. Well probably not ever seen, but it was disgusting, and my team still didn't win.

Off I go...

so I am off to camp for the weekend and then after that Ottawa for a week. I am pretty excited. Thats a whole week of not working. Nothing else is really that special to say right now.

opps...

i did it again.

excited...

I am going to Ottawa for a week!! I am super excited. My boss actually gave me the whole week off with like no notice. Well a few days before he was going to make the schedule notice. Its probably cause he just wants to get rid of me, cause I am the most annoying person in the whole entire world. *smile*. At least I got my own way.

I FINALLY finished another course. Now I don't know for sure if I am going to pass, but at least I did all 3 assignments, so hopefully I get at least a 50%. My roommate helped me like HUGE in finishing them. She is awesome.

Tonight I am going to a ball game, all decked out in a new outfit.

what do you do...

when your a little depressed! Go Shopping! (I am actually not depressed) Friday my roommies and I went shopping together. I bought 7 shirts, they were all brown! My favourite colour. Then I went shopping last night and bought 2 pairs of shorts and a pair of capris. I desperately needed some new stuff in my waredrobe. Yesturday Paul and I also went on a ghost town tour, it was fun. We didnt really get out of the car much. We also didnt have a camera :( We stopped at this resturant in Drayton. They had a buffet, it was all meat. Homecooked meat. Paul ate it and loved it. He even called the old lady, Mom. It was funny. They didnt take debit there, crazy eh, who doesnt take debit?!

So friday afternoon when I got home from work, my roommate was vommiting, crying, and we definetelly not feeling well. She hadnt puked in 19 yrs. So I was taking care of her. It was kinda crazy cause she was completely fine yesturday and then the next day a complete mess. She ended up being okay. We think she probably had heat exhaustion. She was even well enough to go shopping after she had a 3 hr nap.

over...

before nothing started...so i found out my answer of no tonight. a little dissapointed but hopefully he will give me a call so we can at least hang out...feeling some pain...

marks a week...

today that I said something to my new .crush. tonight I saw something of who I could see him dating in the future. Im pretty sure it will probably happen. At least he would be more uplifting for her. too bad it isn't me. I care to much about the opposite sex. why though? I guess its cause I am female. I don't know what to say, or what to do.

nothing exciting...

nothing really exciting happened today. I worked, went to a meeting. I STILL havnt heard back from my new .crush. oh well. I got some more homework done, thanks to my lovely roommate, bought some good food at the grochecy store. thats about it.

Crazy Roommates...

My roommate actually helped me with my homework tonight, and I was able to finish one of my assignments and start the other one. Today I hadnt even had any of it done, and now the whole thing is done. She is planning on pushing me to finish the other 2 assignments, so when I get home from work tommorrow at 2 30. We have a date. Its absoultly crazyness!

I guess I can also be called crazy, consider I went to go and cook today. I cut myself on a tin can, made a mess on the kitchen floor. It looked like I had no idea what I was doing. My roommates were really amumsed, I guess it was pretty funny.

dreaming...

im having trouble getting to sleep tonight. I keep thinking about a generation young service. I can see the crowds of people coming to know Christ. I can think of the details in my head. I can see the worship. I can see the people calling Jesus, Jesus, Jesus. The Drama, The Art, The Music, The Message, The Giving, The Healing, The Teaching, The Speaking. Where have you called me to be God? I want to dwell in your presents forever, in your courts of praise, under your wing of protection.

can't start without...

running shoes! I realized that I dont own a pair of running shoes. I actually havnt owned a pair of running shoes in forever. I can't remember the last time I bought a pair. So here I go today to buy a pair. then this afternoon i think i will have my first run!

running...

well i decided i am going to start running. so hopefully by the end of the summer i will be able to run 5 k. so every 2 weeks I should increase my running by 1 km. maybe one day i can run in a marathon or something cool like that. So tommorrow will be my first day.

can't wait too long...

for an answer. i would go crazy. i think i already am. what was i thinking? what was i doing? where am I going? i dont even know, do you know, i dont, i dont think anyone knows.

1000 muffins...

how many people can say they baked a little over a 1000 muffins in 7 hrs? well I can and now I am extremely tired.

i did it again...

i was bold. i told my new .crush. that i was interested in him. that i had called him monday because i was interested in getting to know him more. i told him he didnt have to answer and he didn't which is fine with me. whatever the outcome may be. i know that whatever he says i will be able to turn around and say well i really still want to be friends with you, so i hope that it can be so. he has been sick, he replied as "i dont think i am in the right frame of mind to respond". he told me he thought maybe why i call was cause i was interested. so he knows how and we will see where it goes.

foolish inconsistencies...

another guy stole my heart, i gave it a try with you but it wouldn’t start. i crush you like he crushed me. Its completely my foolish inconsistencies. im lifing off now. where my heart can be free of his embraces. will i love the next with more then i have. can i be free of that grip he had. or will i hurt the next. will i keep in this rut. like i never should have. can i grow up in gods hand. foolish inconsistencies, its completely outrageous dont you see.

the 4th...

is here now. how will it change. how will it be. will there be fighting. will there be tears. will i hide from reality in my dark corner room. will i beam with great light in the dinning room. its been a few hrs. time will tell well.

i did it..

today I was bolder then normal. I phone my new .crush. and asked him to hang out, but he was tired and is getting sick so he didn't want to. Which is okay because at least I called him. he seemed kinda shocked that I asked him to hang out. I cant even remember how it happened, just that it did happen. Im glad to have done it. I also gave him my phone number so he can call me. Which I do hope he does...

always the same thing...

I always struggle with the same things. like homework. I have 3 assignments due in a week tommorrow. I havn't even started one of them. I hate asking for an extenion cause I dont think I deserve it. I basically just don't do the homework, so why should I get to have longer to do it? I shouldn't. If I don't do the assignment I will have wasted another 600 dollars and will have to take the course all over again. this depresses me, but it is completely my own fault! will I ever learn? I wish I was smarter.