I don't understand...

i wish I knew...i wish you would come and tell me...i feel broken...alone...i need to be picked up...help me to understand...

it feels great...

to hand stuff in. I finish yet another paper, well at least the draft of it, and I have some more editing to do, after I get it back monday. this is really all I have to say...

sometimes I wish..

i havnt meant some people in my life that I know now. There is to much commiment to knowing people. isnt that a mean thing to say. I am totally such a surface level friendship type person. Why cant I let people in? Because I feel like I will get hurt. Its such a sorry way to live a life I might add. I can't really even share my deep secrets and things I am going through with anyone. Im starting to really hate myself...

I havnt posted in like a month...

everytime I sit down to post I get distracted and end up doing something else... How has my life been going? Sometimes fairly well...sometimes not. I feel brought down and depressed. Today I left work early cause I had a little accident and the such. A few weeks ago I went to Merge. It ended up being pretty good, except for a few things. I think I should become a nun. I think I need a ride to school monday. We might be getting evicdent supposly we havnt paid our rent, but we have. This apartment sucks. It coming closer and closer to where I need a place to live. Im starting to get a little parnoid I suppose. I have no idea what I am going to do for the summer. I wish I could just up and go somewhere. but thats not going to happen. I guess Paul and I are offically over. The more I think about it the more its just not going to work out. Especially in this time of my life. I need to learn alot, about myself and love.
I am to selfish...at least I can admit my faults, most people go on in life not admitting when they are wrong. I really need to do a few assignment. I get so unmoviative. I wish I could understand my feelings. I wish I could understand my faults. I wish I could understand...