in my heart...

I feel overwelmed, I dont feel happy. Today I was out for lunch surrounded by people I love to be with, but I was unhappy inside, I dont know if its cause I saw Paul's parents today or what. School is just not going like I thought it would. I seriously dont know why I am in school. I dont feel it in my heart. Its like something I am made to do. I seriously have felt totally unhappy all week. Im not completely giving my life to the Lord, but I dont know how to change who I am. I guess that is that point. I shouldnt know how to change, God should change me. I wish I could drop of the face of the planet, but I would be running away from my problems. I'm not feeling it in my heart...I dont know if anything I do is the right choice anymore...

Im going to consider....

teaching english as a second language, I have thought of it so many times before, and have never done it, but I think I am almost ready to just go and do to. As much as I love where I am right now, I'm thinking I want to experience more then just Canada, I am young. I dont want to be married with Children yet. Maybe I will go to India... or Korea...or Africa...well it won't be until the end of May...cause I do want to finish my semester of school...

this is for you Lori...

So I have offically had 2 weeks of classes, so far so good. My job has definetally been going better, the people who use to not like me like me now. I have got lots of school work, I have been doing it for the most part. I voted monday, first time every, it was pretty cool. I dont really have much else to say, I have alot of work on my plate...

new job...

I really need a new job, I hate my job...

its offical

paul and I have broken up...it happened offically yesturday.

YMCA

So today was a fun day, I went to the Y with my two favourite little friends, B & C. We went swimming it was great. We were suppose to go skating, but skating was over when we got there, cause I got the times messed up. Oh well, I might go on sunday with them. It would be fun.

yeah I thought I was going to write something a little longer, but I dont have anything else to say...

break time...

...so Paul and I are on a break...what kind of break? we are going to see each other way less, and have intentional dates. I am serious about this...

I start school really soon, im pretty excited, and nervous.

I dont really have much to say...