waiting for my mom..

So its 10 oclock, im waiting for my mom, it seems like I have been waiting for her for 2 hrs now...I have no idea what we are going to do. So my other job called, and changed things around on me, so Im pretty mad about that. So I am wondering to myself, if maybe there is some better job for me? But where? I did have a slight feeling that maybe there is more, that maybe there is a better job. But I dont know where it is?

Its less then a month away till Christmas time ...

It can't be that bad to want more...

So I have been blessed again, with another job. A part time one for now, then when I am done the church job, it will be full time.

I also got accepted into Bible College and I picked my classes already...so the next problem is that, hopefully I will be able to get monday's off, cause that when I have my 2 classes. I also found out that my one Old Testament Class from Hertiage is transferable, so thats pretty cool.

Work is going great. Lets hope that with starting this new job, I am not like extremely over worked. My interview went well, I was offered the job on the spot. She said that she doesnt normally do that, that she takes a few days to think about it. Who knows maybe she always does that, im not sure.

Nothing lasts forever...

Well I found out today that my good friends that were suppose to get married this coming year. Arnt together anymore. He cheated on her. It would have been the first TGITL marriage. Gloria was an amazing friend to me. She took me in when I really needed some place to go. I havnt seen her in over a year...isnt that crazy. Its really bad if you ask me. (Anyone want to drive me to Hamilton?)

So I havnt updating for a few days (sorry readers)....so what else has been new?

Last week I started my new job, its been amazing such far. I am really enjoying it. I think I have almost mastered the phones, Its crazy when you have like 3 people on the line, but its amazing.

I got a call back from all 3 places I handed in a resume for. Which is very cool. I still have to set up an interview or 2. I dont know which place I want to work at yet. So I do think God is providing for me, which is amazing.

I had a rough night Friday... but everything else has been great. Even Paul :P.

Is it bad to want more?

So its offical I start my new job tommorrow morning. Working at the church as the secretary. I'm super excited, I'm totally looking forward to the experience. There is just one problem, the job is only a month, so I really need to have another job either lined up...or be able to work both at the same time somehow...is that bad to want more? Zellers called me today...I would love to work there too. I dont want to burn myself out. God has been so faithful... So God, if you want to have me have 2 Jobs, then please help me to have the other one. I know you can do it...can I?

I'm starting to doubt ... am I making the right choice ... I can't beileve I am worrying after what has already happened. Its just that if I don't get a job right after the church job, Im going to be really tight on money, as it is right now, I can't even afford much food... why do we worry?

Totally Awesome week...

...and its only Tuesday! I got a job today, the best job I have ever had. I dont want to say what it is yet, but I will definetally tell you soon. Im so excited because I will be making enough money at this job to be able to pay for my school. Its only a temp job, but its going to be awesome. I'm super excited. God has been really faithful...I was feeling so stressed out about not having a job, and now he has provided.

Today my old teacher email me, and he faxed my last part of my application into the school. So hopefully by the end of the week I will find out if I am accepted into school or not.

What am I doing wrong?

Am I doing something wrong? Have I been a bad example? I would hope from my life, people would see the greatness in following the Lord. I know I have been down the road before, the wide road. Could I be doing something more? The realities of the world are harsh. I once knew someone who though they could keep up to themselves, not facing the harshness of the world, and pretend around them that those things were not occurring. Its impossible, we all have to face it weather we want to or not. Things aren't picture perfect. Everyone is the same, we are all imperfect. Some are trying to be better people, some people don't care, some people live for themselves. I for one, am hoping to live for God each day.

The world around us is full of people who are two-faced. I am sure at lots of time in my life I am the same way. But what can we do as people, to make this better?

better today...

So things are going better today. I didnt realize how bad my last entry was for the person it was about. Considering I didnt say any of that stuff to his face, and he had to read about it. So yeah maybe sometimes I don't think. This morning at church I saw him and I got so excited to see him.

sometimes things are so uncertain...but hopefully they will get better right?

I wish...

I wish that everyone liked me...but its impossible I suppose. There will be just some people who dont like someone. But I really wonder about certain people sometimes. Like what did I do to them? Why is it they dont like me? Do people think others are stupid? That they cant tell when someone is dissing someone else?

I wish that everything made sense, especially with a certain boy and I. I dont understand me. I wish I could understand myself. It hurts to think of me and Paul breaking up, and yeah I am completely thinking about it. Why you ask...I dont even know completely. I just keep seeing all the bad in the relationship and its completely overtaking any of the good. I know there is good, but its just not showing right now for me. I just so mad at myself sometimes when it comes to him, and then I am just so mad at him.

I guess they say you dont know what you had till its gone...do I want to risk it?

Stressed...

Okay I dont get stressed out...but I am right now. Its actually starting to hit me. I really need a job. I handed in my application yesturday for school and its like, if I dont get money I can't go. I keep thinking about how I have to pay bills and Im getting freaked out. Which never happens to me.

I dont really have anything else to say ...

Its 3 am...

So its 3 am...and I am still awake, and surprizingly I am not sleepy. I am sure that If I were to go and lay down I would fall asleep. This staying up late tonight, is completely going to mess up my sleeping schedule. I will probably sleep in real late and then tommorrow night I will again be up late.

Its offical my eye twitched for about 20 hrs and then stoped.

Tonight my mother came and visited me for the first time in a week. We spent maybe 1 hr together, and then that was it. It wasnt very uneventful. It wasnt even a very good visit. We didnt talk much, we just ate and then she drove me to "her" house and I picked up some stuff, and she then drove me back home. Very Uneventful.

I just finished watching "The Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants" and as dumb as the title sounds, it was actually a rather good movie. I do approve of people watching this movie. I will probably never watch it again, but I do think it was good.

Its offical...I am getting sleepy.

eye twitching and the sorts

So my eye has been twitching for like 12 hrs now, but I didnt notice it when I was sleeping, so its possible it wasnt twitching. But when I woke up this morning it was, so I can only conclude that it was twitching as I slept. Its getting rather annoying. There is a few possible things that could be causing my annoying eye twitch. It could be stress, which I personally think I am pretty stress free, but my lovely boyfriend has been getting on my nerves as of late. :P Then there the possiblity that I am reading to much, is it possible to read to much? I guess I have spent a large amount of time reading lately. Then there is the possiblity that I have some wierd eye problem.

I am offically almost done my EBC application. All I have left to do is to get a recent picture of myself, and get one more transcript sent to the school. Its pretty exciting, and scary. What if I didnt get accepted? I find it hard to beileve they wouldnt except me, I think Im all that. But when they look at my application what do I have to offer? I have bad marks from my last bible college, and I confessed on my application about being a druggie at one point in my life. Personally If I was them I would take me, but I am not them.

6 months and counting...

So this week has been slightly annoying. Yesturday Paul and I have been dating for 6 months. But I sure didnt think we were going to last the rest of the week. We had been fighting about lots of different things. It seems as though we have finally worked through it, and things should be getting better, hopefully. But if that doesnt end up being the case, well who knows what is going to happen. Its been a week now since I have moved into my new place. I am very much enjoying it, last night my roommate said I wasnt that bad to live with. Which is a good thing. I know she was worried we wouldnt do so well together, because we have been friends for such a long while. Personally I think that it makes it better. It's already 7 days into November, and I still havn't gotten a job.

I'm here!

Well I have arrived to my new place, its pretty exciting. Paul and I have made up, all this moving stuff put a damper on our relationship. We were ready to kill each other...hehe. The apartment is so hot. That's really my only complient such far and that I dont know where anything in the kitchen is.